Everyone remembers firsts; the first time you rode a bike, your first kiss, your first love, the first time you get got drunk on a bottle of vodka your crazy friend Courtney, got delivered to some randoms door which then led to you being escorted from that randoms house, falling down a rather large hill, ripping your new jeans and then having to go home and explain to your mother that this wasn’t a drank souvenir it was in fact you trying to make a fashion statement. Ok the last one may have just been me but you get the point.
I consider myself to be a person of extremes, I am either so laid back I give the air of not giving a shit about anything or unbelievably hyper and excitable that many people have suggested sedation. Now having ME and having been not well for a few years caused me to embrace my laid back side, as excitability just takes up too much energy. However in the summer of 2012 things changed. My health started to improve, beyond what 18 months previous, I thought was unimaginable and when my health started to come back so did Mad Hyper Sam. And I was lucky enough to get to experience what it was like to do things for the very first time again. In 2012 I once again got to experience coming of age, in my year of second firsts.
29th May 2012 – The first time I went for a run
23rd June 2012 – The first time I had a drink to celebrate my sister and Jack’s wedding.
2nd July 2012 – The first time I could drive a reasonable distance without my legs feeling like they were going to fall off.
17th July 2012 – The first time I went for a bike ride and god it was bloody hard.
25st July 2012 – The first week I had without going for any Physiotherpay as thanks to the good people at Glasgow Royal Infirmary I was well enough to be discharged.
26th July 2012 – The first time I danced till my feet hurt at Faith and Adams wedding.
14th August – The first time I went hiking with my good friend Sandra Bullock, even if she did have to drag me kicking and screaming. But you know what? I was slightly tired the next day but nothing I couldn’t handle.
2nd Sept 2012 – The first time I done a bungee to raise money for the Sam and M.E support group.
28th Sept 2012 – The first time I actually turned up to a graduation ceremony and never just got the certificate through the post. To celebrate completing my COSCA Counseling skills Certificate at Caledonian University.
26th October 2012 – The first time I never spent a birthday unwell
27th October 2012 – The first time I went to a theme park
14th November 2012 – The first time I got proper wrecked and decided it was a good idea to walk from Glasgow to Moodiesburn. Luckily I had a friend who decided this was not a bright idea
And you know what it felt like? It felt like for the first time in years I was living and not merely existing and I enjoyed every minute of it.